renduuuu nyaaa

YA ALLAH , ta tao na ckp cner .. 1 weeks da dy ta online and 1 weeks also seksanya hidup rasa .. OMG ,make me strong please .. everyday tunggu dy online sampai 3 pagy , lepas tue masuk bilik crying ,crying, crying smpai mata bengkak and sampai saket .. then mama bising ckp saket sbb tdo lewat padahal Tuhan jaa tao aku saket sbb dy.. and every night i prayed for him..YA ALLAH ,you know what is happening now , you know what i don't know and i wish , i really do wish all this shit will stop ..ouhh ,shit tgh taip suddenly dgr lagu 'KARNA KU SAYANG KAMU' lagu aku dan dyy ,YA ALLAH rendunyaaa dyy.. YA ALLAH ,npa sume neyy jady..i'm not strong ,God..i'm really not strong to face all this ,God..please , i want him ,the old him ..and a week juga da ta jumpee dy kt tempat kejaa ..entahhhh ,apa dosa aku sume ney jadyy..padahal aku gla perlukan dy skunk..my only lil sista stay asrama ,my sis juga sambung study and dy saja yg banyak teman aku selama neyy..and imagine a week without him and still don't know when all this will stop..i can't imagine my lyfe without youuu YA ALLAH ,i want him ,need him ,miss him ,listen GOD please foreve foreve i want thim..i want nobody other than him..undertand this please??why no one can understand??for the first time of my lyfe , i feel so in love and so in pain..GOD,please please please i need him ,renduuuuu dy..i'm sick to cry again ,every night is like my nightmare to sleep without chatting with him ,without any word from him ,renduuuu semua tuee TUHAN..sakitnyaa TUHAN saja yg tao..YA ALLAH ,it's hurt the most i've ever felt..what have i done??i know tonight i will be crying again but no matter what youuuu areee thee onlyyy oneee i need ,loveeeee ,mishhh andd ittt will bee forevaaaaaaaaaaaaa okeyyy FULLSTOP